This is my sanctuary for now. I know no one reads this so I'm going to tell it all.

So, Samantha and Jessie, Martha and Ed, Justin and David, Aubrey and Arlie, Jenn and Steve, Betsy and Kyle, Amber and Sean... Kristin and... history?
I'm probably writing this because I got really drunk last night.

I have too many thoughts going on right now. I'll start from the top.
I live alone, I'm moving into a new apartment, alone. I'm paying for it, alone. I work, alone. I drive alone, I eat alone, and I sleep alone. The one person I had to lean back on was justin, because he couldn't take it either (being fucking lonely). But now he's on his feet and I'm heading for the ground. It's almost been 24 hours and they have not separated yet. It's alright, I get it, you like eachother. I just try to have a conversation with anyone and bam, it's like a goddamned competition. I get cut off, talked over and ignored. I really dont have anything interesting to say, but nither does he, and some how it's HILARIOUS when he says it. The conversation is J and D with the occasional peanut gallery remark. This is nothing. I'm stupid for saying any of this, he's happy... I got it. But why without me? I wonder if the next time he calls me David is there...

I was 3rd wheel.

I didn't go to sticky rice with them tonight, guess why. EdMartha and Justindavid were going,no room in car, no room at table, and no room in conversation.

FUCK THIS.

Why am I discontented. My best friend found a guy that can keep his interest for an entire day. That's awesome.

I'm just... you know. The same as always. Whatever. This too shall fucking pass.

More supprised than the time coco revealed herself a man and more stuck than a nose with the flu.

I don't belong here, school, city, country, lifestyle.  I'll get out soon enough.  Party every night until I'm dissilusioned to think that the only way out of my alcoholic psychology is through the savation of career and the grace of god knows what.

If the biggest thing to talk about is if the girl across the street is a hooker or a drag queen and where we're going to score some reef then I guess life is all it is right now.

Sexsexsex. I've got to get my shit staight. Fuckfuckfuck. I should study for my exams. Pussypussypussy. Need to find an apartment. sexsexsex. Got to make rent.

what if I combined the two worlds of women and work? What if everytime I'd get an A I'd be garunteed a good relationship, everytime I'd hit bank at work I could take her out or go somewhere for the weekend, and everytime I'd clean my apartment I'd get a goodnight. I guess I just need someone or something to support (besides myself...).

sics
Name:: Kristin
Age:: 18
Height:: 5`7`'
Hair Color:: brown
Eye Color:: brown

School Life
What's your school's mascot?: a black man
School color(s)?: black
G.P.A.?: b.lack
Who is your favorite teacher?: black NiGah
What do they teach?: african american history
Is this your favorite class?: yessa

Internet
Do you use any instant messengers?: yes
If so, which ones?: AIM
About how many hours a day do you spend online?: 1-2
Do you have a digital camera?: no
If so, do you post pictures of yourself online?: no

Music
Do you play any instruments?: yes
If so, what one(s)?: a few
3 Favorite Genres Of Music:: hm
3 Favorite Bands:: Le Tigre, Outkast, Dashboard Confessional
Do you go to concerts and/or shows?: yep
What is the most you've ever spent on a concert/show?: 60
What is the least you've ever spent?: 0
Do you think buying merch at a concert then wearing it there is corny?: maybe
Do you listen to any bands that you'd be ashamed to admit to listening to?: no

Word Association
Blue:: skies
Camera:: whore
Boy:: toy
Pretty:: lady
Music:: tame
Sweater:: jacket
Live Journal:: neon
MTV:: kills

Labels:
Do you think labels are dumb?: whatever
Why or why not?: i'm not having this conversation with a screen
What do people label you as?: Dyke.
How/Why did you get this label?: because I'm a dyke.

Which Is Worse?
Physical Pain/Emotional Pain?: emotional
Blink-182/Good Charlotte?: blink 182
Being Deaf/Being Blind?: dead
Being Bored/Rushing around because you have too much to do?: bored
Losing your dominant leg/Losing your dominant arm?:dead

Love
Do you believe theres a difference between "love" and "in love"?: sure
Is it better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all?: ugh.
Are you in a relationship now?: no
What song describes your love life right now?: halelloujah - rufus w.

Randomosity
War: Good or Bad?: bad
What do you think of designer labels?: a waste of money
Who's skankier: Britney Spears or Paris Hilton?: paris
Do you sing?: in the car
What color is your room?: white
How old is your mom?: 48
Black and white or color photos?: both
Who cuts your hair?: whoever wants to
What color is your toothbrush?: grey and green
What color is your hair brush?: blue
What kind of hair products do you use?: Fructis
Is K-Mart just the poor man's Wal-Mart?: no
What color to people tells you looks nice on you?: gosh
Clothes shopping or grocery shopping?: clothes
Who do you sit with at lunch? hehe. that's cute.
Do you like the sound of your own voice when you hear it played back?: sure
Who has the nicest speaking voice that you know?: Melissa
Do you prefer to date people younger, older, or the same age as you?: older
Do you listen to songs on repeat often?: no
Who was the last person you hung out with?:justin steph and christine 
What did you and that person do?: hehe
Do you use internet shorthand (i.e. "lol", "brb", "jk", et cetera)?: no
Do you dye your hair regularly?: sometimes
What about your eyebrows?: no
Do you wear makeup?: no
Do you buy CDs edited or unedited?: Unedited
Either Or...
Day or night?: night
Rain or shine?: rain
Silence or noiseyness?: silence
Music or TV?: music
Black or white?: BLACK NIGGA
Blue or pink?: blue
Summer or winter?: summer
Cold or hot?: cold
Cats or dogs?: dogs

Do you like..
Blink 182?: yes
AFI?: yes
Apples?: yes
Florida?: sure
God?: yes
Black?: yes
Yellow?: yes
Fish?: yes
The beach?: yes
Snow?: yes
Sex?: mmmm
Darkness?: yes
Music?: yes
TV?: sometimes
Chic-Fil-A?: yes
The USA?: yes
Gorge Bush?: no

Current Likes and infO...
Clothes: whatever, usually earth tones. makes me feel comfortable
Music: all, yes... even country
TV show or movie: i can't think
Smell: my pillow and blanket
Color of your your room: cracka white
Favorite Chair: the one my mother raised her children in
First name: Kristin
Middle Name: marie
Last Name: fitz
Do you like your names?: sure
Any nicknames?: krusty
Favorite thing to do: relax
favorite person: clark kent
favorite drink: coffee and tea
how much time do you spend online in an average week: not too much
who do you talk to the most: justin
what is your weekly salary: zip as of now
what type of car do you own: Ranger
bath or shower: bath
reading or wathcing tv: reading
biggest thing you've ever won: a huge lobster from a theme park
favorite web site: lj.com
if you could have one super power, what would it be: to tell when someone's lying
siblings: 2
avorite gun: smith and wesson
supply: every thing
What do you find attractive in the opposite gender: same sex. I guess. bone structure
favorite instrument: cello
favorite sport: softball
favorte color: brown

Are you....
adventurous: yes
passionate: yes
lazy: yes
depressed: no
sleepy: yes
smart: yes
absent minded: sometimes
crazy: maybe
have any bad habits: yes
do you think you're fat: no
do you have an online journal: yes
have a web site: nope
which instant messengers do you use: AIM
does your family annoy you: not anymore
favorite lunch meat: bologna
 

okay i'm going to bed

_{*******SIMPLE QUESTIONS*******}

_{1. FULL NAME: Kristin Marie Fitzgerald}

_{2. NICKNAMES: Krusty}

_{3. EYES: Brown}

_{4. HEIGHT: 5'7"}

_{5. HAIR LENGTH &COLOR: Black brown and blonde. short.}

_{6. SIBLINGS: Justin, Jon, and James.}

_{7. DO YOU LIKE TO SING IN THE SHOWER?: yes}

_{8. DO YOU LIKE TO SING IN THE TOILET? on the toilet. and no.}

_{9. BIRTHDATE: July 17th 1987}

_{10. STAR SIGN: Cancer}

_{12. SEX: womyn}

_{13. RIGHTY OR LEFTY: right}

_{14. WHAT DO YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP? honesty, passion, and openess.}

_{15. EVER CHEATED OR BEEN CHEATED ON: Didn't "technically" cheat, and yes I have been. Just once.}

_{16. MARITAL STATUS: Single}

_{17. DO YOU HAVE A CAR?: Ford Ranger. 95.}

_{18. WHAT KINDA CAR YOU HAVE/WANT? 57 Ford F-150.}

_{*******FAVORITE QUESTIONS*******}

_{19. MOVIE: Peter Pan}

_{20.SONGS: As of now... Collide - Howie Day, and Closer - Jem}

_{21. BAND/SINGER: Le Tigre Kathleen Hanna}

_{22. SHOW: Law and Order SVU, The Ellen Degeneres show.}  

_{23. ACTOR: John Travolta}

_{24. ACTRESS: Nicole Kidman}

_{25. FOOD: Italian}

_{26. NUMBER: q}

_{27. CARTOON: Simpsons}

_{28. DISNEY CHARACTER: Aladin}

_{29. COLOR: brown}

_{*******LOVE LIFE ETC*******}

_{30. DO YOU PLAN ON HAVING CHILDREN?: yes}

_{31. DO YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED?: I'm getting married legally to my best friend. Concerning a romantic marriage... well, I just don't know.} 

_{32. HOW OLD DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU HAVE YOUR FIRST CHILD?: when I'm ready.}

_{33. HOW OLD DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GET MARRIED?: who cares?}

_{34. HAVE KIDS BEFORE MARRIAGE?: No. N O. no.}

_{35. DO YOU HAVE A BF/GF?: No.}

_{37. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?: I wouldn't call it a crush.}

_{***EITHER-OR (WHICH ONE YOU PREFER)***}

_{38. MUSIC/TV: Music}

_{39.GUYS/GIRLS: Girls}

_{40. GREEN/BLUE: Green}

_{41.PINK/PURPLE: Pink}

_{42. SUMMER/WINTER: Summer time}

_{43. NIGHT/DAY: Night}

_{44. HANGIN OUT/CHILLIN: haha what?}

_{45. DOPEY/FUNNY: Funny}

_{*******ALL ABOUT YOU*******}

_{46. WEIRD SAYING YOU HAVE: It's got a funky beat, and I can dance to it!}

_{47. WHAT SCHOOL DO YOU GO TO?: J Sarg. CC}

_{48. HAVE YOU EVER TAKEN DRUGS?: oh yes}

_{49. WHAT'S A MAJOR TURN-ON FOR YOU?: loyalty, like... if someone's dream person asked them out they'd pick me over them.}  

_{50. HOW FAR WOULD YOU GO ON A FIRST DATE? Depends on the date.}

_{****SOME ONE YOU KNOW WHO IS...****
*MOST BLONDE: Justin}

*FUNNIEST/ CRAZIEST/LOUDEST: Funniest - Danger Craziest- Samantha Evans Loudest - Stephanie Evans

_{*STRANGEST: Not Sure}

_{*MOST CARING: Justin}

_{*TALLEST: Samantha P} 

_{*SMARTEST: whaaa.}

_{*BEST PERSONALITY: Hey, I'm just glad they have one.}

_{*BEST ALL-ROUND PERSON: Me. ;)}

_{*****THINGS THAT YOU THINK*****}

_{52. WHICH 6 PEOPLE ARE YOU OPEN WITH AND TRUST THE MOST? Justin, Danger, Betsy, Kelly... that's all I got.}

_{53. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF SOUL MATES?: I'll know it when I see it.}

_{54. IS IT RIGHT TO FLIRT IF YOU HAVE A BF/GF?: I'm torn. Flirting, like you don't even mean it... thas fine. But flirting... for real... doesn't fly. Call my jealous or posessive... it's just how I roll.}

_{55. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU CRIED OR GOT TEARY ABOUT?: How much I love my best friend. How strong of a bond there is between me and him and nothing can break it.}

_{57. ARE YOU HAPPY?: yes. I could be happier though.}

_{58.WHY? Because I just had a revalation last night about everything important in my life.}

_{59. WHAT'S AN OBJECT YOU CANT LIVE WITHOUT? a blanket.}

_{60.SILVER OR GOLD?: Silver}

_{62. DIAMOND OR PEARL: Diamonds}

_{63. SUNSET OR SUNRISE?: Sunset}

_{64. HAVE YOU EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING?: yes}

_{65. DO YOU SLEEP WITH STUFFED ANIMALS?: Yes. A doggie.}

_{66. DO YOU HAVE ANY PIERCINGS?: my ears}

_{67. WHAT COLOR UNDIES ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW?: N/A}

_{68. WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?: no woman no cry}

_{69. WHAT ARE THE LAST 4 DIGITS OF YOUR PHONE NUMBER?: 0595}

_{70. WHERE WOULD YOU WANT TO GO ON YOUR HONEYMOON?: Kenya, China, Italy, France, and Spain.}

_{71. WHO DO YOU WANT TO SPEND THE REST OF YOUR LIFE WITH?: Justin Charles Sprague and this really beautiful girl I know.}

_{72. WHAT'S THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?: Collar Bones, Jaw Line, and proportion.}

_{73. FAVORITE SPORT?: Softball and Tennis}

_{74. WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: being with people I care about}

_{75. WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: Probably Northern State.}

_{76.DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS OR GLASSES?: nither}

_{77. WHAT'S THE BEST ADVICE GIVEN TO YOU?:  The world doesn't owe you anything. - my dad.}

_{78. HAVE YOU EVER WON ANY SPECIAL AWARDS: yeah}

_{79. WHAT WAS IT: Art awards, 3 soccer MVPs, 4 Basketball MVPs, and a few scattered blue ribbons for the science fair.}

_{79. WHAT ARE YOUR FUTURE GOALS?: To let the world know there are other people on this planet.}

_{80. WORST SICKNESS YOU EVER HAD?: Food Poisoning... blech.}

_{81. DO YOU LIKE FUNNY OR SCARY MOVIES BETTER?: funny}

_{82. ON THE PHONE OR IN PERSON?: In person}

_{83. HUGS OR KISSES?: kisses}

<sub>84. WHAT SONG SEEMS TO REFLECT YOU THE MOST?: Right now... Let Run - Le Tige

85. IF YOU DIED TOMORROW, WHO WOULD YOU LEAVE EVERYTHING TO?: My family.</sub>

_{86. DO YOU HAVE ANY ENEMIES?: Nope.}

_{87. WHAT IS YOUR GREATEST FEAR: Becoming disillusioned}

_{88. WOULD YOU RATHER BE RICH OR FAMOUS?: famous}

_{90. IF YOU HAD 24 HOURS LEFT TO LIVE, WHO WOULD YOU SPEND TIME WITH?: My Family. inc. JCS} 

_{91. HAVE YOU MET SANTA: yeah}

_{92. IF E.T. KNOCKED ON YOUR DOOR HOLDING UP A PEACE SIGN ASKING TO USE YOUR PHONE WHAT WOULD YOU DO?: This is such a stupid question}

_{93. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU TALKED TO THE PERSON YOU LIKED?: um, two days?}

_{94. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS?: Elijah, and I'm the godmother of khong.}

_{95. WHATS YOUR EMAIL ADDRESS?: kfitz@journalist.com}

_{96. LAST TIME YOU WERE DEPRESSED?: for a few days... a few days ago}

_{97. ARE YOU AN ALCOHOLIC?:not quite}

_{98. WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?: No one.}

_{99. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THAT PERSON?: I love her.}

_{100. DO YOU WANT YOUR FRIENDS TO WRITE BACK?: ...mmmaybe?}

_{101. IF YOU COULD CHANGE A DISASTER THAT HAPPENED ON THIS EARTH WHICH EVENT WOULD IT BE?: The Veitnam War.}